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how can i get any closer to her if all i do is push her away? why i do this maybe cuz i don't wanna see myself get hurt or anyone else, I'm done with feeling sorry for my existence because if i wasn't here i wouldn't have meet some of the people Ive met now. I cant stand still and let time go by because its a chance i will lose her and maybe all of you. Dealing with my Anxiety is a pain in the ass always feeling judged or never feeling good enough, I'm dealing with it step by step so i don't get overwhelmed but the memories still remain. I've felt better than ever, But theres still much work to be done. It seems like all the big stuff I can only fix myself but the smaller stuff anyone could help me with. I'm finding one thing to love about myself everyday and its a never ending process NO EXCUSES so things can only get better right?