This is Not A Plead (Just How I Feel)

sometimes I feel like a prisoner held captive in my body with no where to go, noone to talk to & no where to run except outside my mind which seems nearly impossible. Im only human I've done things wrong in my past, but I feel that I could never forgive myself for it or accept myself, i feel noone loves me altho my girl says she does I find it hard to believe its nearly impossible to love me and if you do I don't see why noone accepts me for me all I get is mock & ridiculed So You Hate Me? and dont have answers to why simply because I'm "ME" and breathing. & while you are all pointing your fingers and mocking me as if I was never there or could hear you in the first place Im sitting in my corner crying my eyes out and after I wipe them and leave you ask "Whats Wrong" My Answer "Nothing Im Fine" because nothing could ever be wrong right?(sarcasm). It seems I'm always to blame in any situation well i knew everything was my fault anyway so why bother telling me. I know its my fault you failed your test, and you tripped and fell on your face and someone close to you died :( this would only be true if i had friends to say this about so i guess you can call this a "hypothetical scenario" so while im crying writing this all you can go ahead and ridicule me some more it just make me not care about my life more! is that what you want? i found it weird i was listening to a song and started crying today it was weird but it wouldn't be the first time Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams i also extremely related to Slipknot - Snuff is kinda made me wanna puke up broken hearts :(, i rly don't know what to say by now you probably closed this because noone cares anyway :(